Wednesday, December 31, 2008

What happens when it's early morning and you have internet

So i was doing my rounds on the Internet this morning- i woke up randomly at like 4am so i decided to pick up my laptop and wonder aimlessly around the internet (that means facebook,, blogspot, myspace, and youtube :P). now while on youtube, i was watching some random videos from youtubers starting with littleradge, then robofillet, then some random ppl and finally to halfscottishguy. I was watching halfscottishguy's video named food for worms (which you will find a link for here) and he brought up the issue of religion. Now i know that religion is a touchy subject and if anyone is just passing by and sees this post almost all of those persons would automatically exit from the screen and move on with life
I can't blame them, the topic has the power to tear families apart
yet still i find it a subject that i don't mind talking about anyway because, if you know me, i am a christian and i do love Jesus.
again! if anyone had stayed long enough to get to the previous line, you probably automatically exited this page and moved on with life- probably cursing me a little while you did it.

now then, for the ones that i didn't lose, i hope you would read my post to the end and maybe leave a response for me- i don't know if anyone will or not but it would be nice to hear from someone.

Ok, so first off i wanted to just point out some of the things that HSG talked about in his video. On the topic of religion being a bad thing i agree fully with him. How is it that being 'religious' or believing in something fully and strongly is a bad thing? I understand the value of science and i understand the value of reason and i understand the value of proof but we are humans- we are people. we are different from what this world consists of. I have a mind, i imagine, i have complex thought. i love, i want, i need, i feel pain, i suffer, i fear. I am. Together we as people make a community- we make ourselves a tribe, a society a civilization! All civilizations at some point or the other make themselves a set of rules because they all come to the conclusion that there is a wrong and a right. You will never find any place ever that feels like anything goes. There hasn't and never will be a place on this earth where there will be a system that accepts there is no wrong or right. so in short, we have a conscious! how do you explain the idea of having a conscious? Science can explain a lot of things but it can't explain everything. I believe that there i a moment in every persons life that cannot be explained. There will be a point in time where you know something happened- if you tell anyone they might be able to explain it away, but you know, you know that there was something more that was going on in that moment. Science won't back it up and there is no proof to it but what you saw, felt, and experienced yourself- and yet it was still real.

If there is no such thing as magic, if there is no such thing as spirituality then why is it that so many people all over the world have had ridiculous supernatural moments? yea, i don't believe most of them either but still, there must be a reason for these encounters that cannot be explained (or maybe the yearning for such encounters?)

Anyway, back to HSG's video- he also mentioned something that i felt compelled to stew over a little. It was the idea of not forcing your beliefs on anyone else. That's the excuse and the warning that is used so often now a days that i think one should rethink the meaning of that phrase. What, really, is considered forcing your beliefs to another person? At what point is it considered force? Is it possible to just have a discussion about religion? is that considered forcing? I mean, if you know me, i'm a very argumentative person- not because i want to be annoying...usually...but because i like to be challenged. I like to push ppl and i liked to be pushed back- idk maybe there's not a lot of ppl like me out there. But i would think that religion would be a touchy yet interesting subject to have a conversation about- if both parties are willing. Ah! so that may be the problem!! sometimes both parties are not willing. But if someone is doing something like, oh i dunno... a blog? or a vlog? or anything like that? How can that be considered forcing your beliefs on others? the viewer has the option of tuning in or not- why must we say "I don't want to force my beliefs on theirs" when your not? all your doing is putting the belief that you feel is true out there for people to see and either take or leave.

Ok, to HSG's question- Do i believe in an afterlife? What do i think happens when we die?
HSG does not believe in anything- that there is nothing after death. Just darkness. I actually can understand how that could be a very releasing thought. It gives you the freedom to think that one should not waste time with foolishness and should live life to the fullest, go out, be! and then when you die, you have peace...
but what if that isn't the case? what if you wake up again to find out that death is not the end and that there is something more? I'm not going to use this to inject my own belief in God but the question still holds. What if you are wrong? We are wired to believe that there is something more that what this life is. Yea, i think in a society where progress and science runs ramped, ppl try to explain away the fact that there is nothing more and no supreme being but the idea still lingers in one's mind. No one says "but there is nothing." and just walks away without giving the idea a second thought.

What also stuck me in the video is the idea many people have now a days about their own personal beliefs. "this is what i believe happens" "this is who I think God is" "This is how I think we go to heaven"- we can't all be right if something happens after death. If we are all right and our afterlife caters to the belief system that we want then we accept the fact that we are all Gods (the Mormons don't look so crazy now do they?) and that we have the power to control how our heaven will be when we know we have no control over anything in the first place. If there is right and wrong, how is it that there can be no heaven AND hell? is the idea of a hell something that is feared? does it make one face up to the idea that some things in their life may have been wrong to do? If there is right or wrong, why believe in just a heaven? it makes no sense, logically speaking, to get rewarded after death just for the heck of it? if there isn't right or wrong, then why would there be a reward for just dying? If one believes in a heaven, there must be a kind of hell.

Of course, one may ask- "well Tabby, what if you're wrong?"
my answer is simply that i don't believe that i am wrong- in fact i'll go on to say that i know that i am not wrong. That i because i fully and totally, with all my mind and my being believe that there is a God and he has a Son named Jesus and he put his words into a book called the Bible. I can try to explain away why and how everything and anything could happen but in the end it wouldn't matter because some things in life can't be explained away. there is a layer of reality that should be recognized in one way or another that doesn't follow the rules of science.

I think people who don't have true faith, i mean a faith that you wake up thinking about and obsessing about, cannot understand what it means for one to know what they believe in is true. That is because that person has put all their trust, more trust than they would put on a life long best friend or themselves, into that faith. When you put all of yourself into something that is above human error there is no longer any 'i believe' there is only 'i know.' Or else, it means that you really are not sure and there fore you do not have all trust in what you are saying-it is prone to error.

That's all i have to say. Again, i do not believe in apologizing for my post because I am stating what i believe on my own sight. Leave a message if you like- i would enjoy reading something like i'm still on break ^_^

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Saturday, December 27, 2008

I gotta new dress!!! XD

I gotta new dress!!!!
and it's crazy O.O

Now isn't that a crazy dress?!?!!!
got it from this new store in my mall called Know Style.
i can't wait to wear it! it will definately be my new party dress =3

recently i've been worrying about the pictures that i took on christmas because i realized that Christmas was the first time i had really used my flash class maybe?
haha, not so good :P! i probably did everything all wrong so it's very possible that i may not have any pictures up at all from christmas... =/

Ahhh well, it happens... ^_^

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Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas...

So this post was getting really emo really quick, cause i was having a moment at like 1 this morning but i'm back and ready for the day :P (and i decided to start it all over)

Happy Christmas to Everyone- may all the desires of your heart come to life, and may God be with you all
I took some pictures of today so i'll update that when i get that film developed (so you can guess i did not get that dslr for chrstmas :P). What i DID get was a record player! =D
it's not the cool vintage one like the one i put up here before but it's nice anyway. actually it kind of reminds me of the 90's (don't ask me why...) but it's good, now i just need some
records to play and another needle- i umm, actually broke it trying to put the needle guard thing on it- yea it's a little ironic :P

now! it's time to help my mother make dinner ^_^
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Sunday, December 21, 2008

out and about

i FINALLY got out of the house today... and i'm happy i did.
There was a terrible snow storm on friday so i sadly couldn't follow through with my plan to go out and attempt to take some snowy pictures... i want to get at least a roll in before i leave home.

I've been emotionally drained these past few days and i think it has something to do with being in the house for too long. I have come to the conclusion that very few people can be fully content with being by themselves for long periods of time- of course maybe that's just me =3.

Decided I'd put up my outfit today just because i was able to steal my mother's very nice camera for a while and because i don't think i really have done that recently...
( haven't even updated my flickr page since like forever!)

Ooo- look at that picture quality ^_^
so, it's not that great here yes, but it's a pretty good non-flash pic compared to my camera...
i really REALLY need a new digital- i should probably ask for one for Christmas?
(something besides the DSLR that is :P)
hat- delias
scarf- Italia!
sweater- express
blouse(under sweater)- H&M
tank(under sweater)- H&M
gray denim- American Apparel
boots- gift =D
bag- Urban Outfitters
Well i haven't done that in a long time :P

Tomorrow is suppose to be a fairly busy day too- but only if these snow storms tonight/tomorrow aren't that bad. If they are then i'll be a very bored girl once again T_T

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Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Keeping busy

I'm still really really bored but i'm trying to keep busy.
At the moment, I've been attempting to reach some goals and finish up some started projects.
For example, I've picked up knitting again. I have yet to finish my first scarf but now i decided to do my best to complete it by the end of the holiday.

I'm very tempted to just stop and move on to another yarn though. The one i chose to do this scarf with is very thin and for some crazy reason, i guess i thought that knitting a scarf out of neon green material would be a good idea O.o.
Whatever- it might as well. It's not like i have any money to buy any yarn with...

I've also been busy getting ready to do stuff this weekend. Of course it's the weekend before
Christmas and that's also when, most definitely, all of my friends will be back home for the holidays- which is good ^_^

I'm in desperate need for some wrapping paper tho- i dunno where it all went!!!!
geez, a girl leaves for a few m
onths and next thing you know, all the thing she had in her room are gone *sigh*

been robbed by the family...

well that's basically it. nothing too exciting for today really...
until tomorrow i suppose ^_^

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*I actually remembered what i was going to put up here the first place ^_^*
So i was doing my runs on and found some pretty cool artists that i liked :P half for me to remember them, let me just put them up- i
tend to find and re-find bands until i decide it might be a good idea to save the artist

Lykke Li- Dance, Dance, Dance

I really like that song from her because it's so upbeat!!!
well it's not really really upbeat but it still makes me want to dance so i guess it counts =3

Cajun Dance Party

I think their pretty upbeat and crazy- i can't really find any full tracks anywhere which make me sad... (well of the tracks i want :P) WEEEELLL except no Joanna

Lightspeed Champion

I think his music is pretty sweet, i can't remember the tracks i like exactly but they all kind of relax me a bit :P- Myspace,

Good Shoes

I love that song Never Meant to Hurt you but their other songs are really good as well

ok- now i'm really done ^_^

Monday, December 15, 2008

Back Home for the Holidays...


Back home and there is NOTHING to dooooo...
everyone's still going through their finals week so i have the luxury of just laying here until my friends come back at the end of this week...

I've been too busy studying and trying to not fail my exams last week so i wasn't able to update like all.

It's good to be home, but i miss some of my friends from college (of course, i also needed to just get away from some of those people too...)
I thought that being home would be a relief as well but unfortunately, i have to face the people and the things that dro
ve me away from being here in the first place once again.

it just sucks to not find any refuge anywhere- no physical place for me to find peace and to be at peace...

I wonder if it's just me that has this problem. There's always someone who i manage to feel awkward around. There
's always something that makes me hate my current situation. Is it too much to ask to be completely and wholly comfortable with my surroundings? is it possible for me to feel completely at home anywhere? why is it so hard for me to just find some place to take cover and rest. I need a security blanket for it seems that i have lost mine.

Anyway, one must carry on-
Christmas list time!!!!

2. The Crosley AV Room Portable USB

I've kind of always wanted to own records but i don't exactly have a record player so i've also always have wanted a record player. Unfortunately my mother gave away hers when she was younger (we moved a lot so much of my
grandparent's things were left behind). it looks very pretty i think and even though i know that LP's aren't exactly the most environmentally friendly thing, at least i can go to thrift stores and get a bunch of older stuff right?
the price tag on this is $160 and can be found on

3.The Vampire Weekend LP

An amazing Record to go with the Amazing Record Player/ turntable =3
brought to you by a price of $14.98 at

4. WeSC Oboe Headphones

So i just like big headphones but haven't really gotten around to getting them (too many other projects going on i suppose) and these are very cute i think ^_^
brought to you at a price of $50 by, once again,

5. Miss Dior Cherie

I found a sample of this in a Teen Vogue magazine. Usually, perfume scents disgust me but i fell in love with this one- it's so expensive though! i tried to find the price at Macy's (cause that's where i got this pic) but couldn't find it... at amazon though, a 1oz perfume spray is about $50

6. Midnight Fantasy by Britney Spears

I LOVE this perfume!!!! i bought it once at the airport on the way back to the US from London and had the hardest time finding it anywhere else BUT i did manage to find this perfume on (thank you amazon!!! =D) at $26.87 for a 3.4oz perfume spray

Ok so that's it for today. manage to kill some time but not enough...
Back to cleaning and being bored

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Thursday, December 4, 2008


The Last Ripper, blows my mind....

*actually, that was all i was going to write but then i decided to add more =3
soo...finals week after this!!!! O.O
not ready, like at all- chinese and Econ are going to kill me.

I've been updating the blog, making it look nicer and stuff and adding more stuff and whatevers... i dunno, i think it looks nice ^_^

Now that Thanksgiving is over and done with, LETS TALK ABOUT CHIRSTMAS!!!! =D
i LOVE Christmas, the best holiday EEEEVVVVEEEERRRR :P
there's snooow and hot chocolat
e and eggnog and decorations and presents and Christmas music and the super special holiday drinks at Starbucks and candy canes and...well, all that is good =3

So i decided to make myself a Christmas List- not like anyone here reading this would actually get me something- but just so i have a list (it's probably going to be a continuous thing :P)

so here it is- Tabby's super special CHRISTMAS LIST
number one:
a Digital SLR!!! >.<

i know i've said this before but i would LOVE that camera!!! here is the Canon Digi Rebel with 12.2 mega pixels and has a price tag of $639
...yeeeaaa... =/

tune in next time for the others!!! =D

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Monday, December 1, 2008

haha, i LOVE these :P

no one judge me!!!! i love these little questionnaire things :P
(and sorry for the italics...i dunno, it wont go away!!! T_T)
1. What's your name?


2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
ummm... well oversized things, colorful tights and legging, bright colours, crazy accessories, and pieces that are unique and take imagination to pull off ^_^

3. Last thing you ate?
a Jimmy John's sub

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?
Big Top (if you know what i'm talking about, you'll understand :P)

5. I say Shotgun, you say:
apartide O.O- yea that's right, i get front seat

6. Last person you hugged?
my dad before boarding the plane back to school

7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?
i hope, but i was never good at telling :P

8. Would you date anyone you met online?
hrm..i suppose...

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:
i like my eyes because they're big and my hand because they're thin

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?

11. Who is your best friend?
my buddy Ashley and my buddy Rebecca ^_^

12. What time of the day is it?

13. Who/What made you angry today?
My writing class for being impossible for all Tabby's everywhere =/

14. Baseball or Football?
Football as in soccer? in that case FUTBOL!!!!! jaja

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?
not yet ;)

16. Favorite type of Food?
ummm Jamaican because we have the best of everything (trust me, we do...)

17. Favorite holiday:

18. Do you download music:
all the time ;p
but acutally through rhapsody so i guess i'm not as BA as some other ppl

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
well not if i really, REALLY need socks... (then they just need to smell clean i guess- wow, this is embarassing)

20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
Well i probably can because i study chinese, as long as it means something absolutely awsm tho, none of that 'love, dreamer, happyness' crap- boring. might as well put a freaking cherry or flower or butterfly on your body, very original...

21. Would you date the person that posted this?
I took this from another blog because i'm a loser like that. i wouldn't date me tho- that's silly! :P

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
I wish...who's up for it?

23. Do you love anyone?
hrm...not anyone romantically... =/
can we stop talking about relationships?!?!?!?!!! T_T

24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?
not on guys, it makes them look like losers. Girls, hrm...i wouldn't like to see it on others but i probably would get it and go for an impossible colour like purple cause it would look cool ^____^

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
Nope, and i don't really plan on doing it

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
No. Again, no real interest for that kind of stuff...

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
YEAH!!!! creepers...
but i think every girl has to go through that. THAT'S WAT PEPPER SPRAY IS FOR!!! =D

28. How many pets do you have?
well at College my roomie has two fishies which i could, i guess, call mine. At home a have a little kitty named Happy ^_^

29. Have you met a real redneck?
nope, and i'm not planning to- i'd prbably get shot

30. How is the weather right now?

31. What are you listening to right now?
the sound of girls screaming randomly outside, but i was listening to vampire weekend earlier on (Oxfod Comma!!!! =D)

32. What is your current favorite song?
ummm... i would have to say...hrm...argh!!! i dunno!!!! T_T
well here are a few song that i'm kind of inlove with currently:
Oxford Comma- Vampire weekend
What New York Used to Be- The Kills
Living on a Prayer- Bon Jovi
Tristesse/Joie & Je Veux Te Voir- Yelle
so i guess a mixture of that ^_^

33. What was the last movie you watched?
Twilight!!! and don't worry, i'm not a freaky fan. it wa an ok movie but i definately had it' :P

34. Do you wear contacts?
well yea, but rarely (my amazing glasses are too cool for contacts ;p)

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
my dorm, the cafeteria, class i dunno...

36. What are you afraid of?
being just average

37. How many piercings have you had?
nothing special. my ears right now...

38. What piercings do you want?
i'm saving up to get my belly button pierced soon :P

39. What's one thing you've learned this year?
A butt load! sooo many things about God that i can't begin to tell you in just a few words.

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
A tall white mocha with skim milk ^_^

41. What Magazines are you reading?
Teen vogue and seventeen (hey! don't judge :P)

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
Nope, and i don't really want to either- who wants to pull a Dick Chaney move =3

43. Are you missing someone?
hrm, well i just came back from home so not really...

44. Favourite TV show?
DOCTOR WHO!!!! Torchwood, The Office, Gossip Girl, Ugly Betty, I Love the 70's,80's,90's, new millenium, and the read of them; Countdown

45. Do you have an obession with WoW?
Haha, i almost didn't know what you were talking about so obviously NO

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
Nah! i'm one of a kind

47. What celeb do you look like one...

48. Who would you like to see right now?
ummm...i dunno...well i do- a certain someone... :P

49. Favorite movie of all time?
Pirates of the caribbean 1 and 2

50. Do you find yourself loved?
Well somtimes, then sometime i feel very lonely and i get sad...

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suppose to?
who hasn't? but noting bad. Prolly just something stupid from when i was a little kid

52. Favorite smell?
um, well freshly printed paper (LOVE that smell), oooo- D&G's cologne for men (i dunno which one but one of them just makes me melt), aaaaaaaannnnnnd the smell of the lysol air freshner :P

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
extra butter ALL THE WAAAAAAY!

54. What's something that really bugs you?
People who are rude and disrespectful to others.

55. Do you like Michael Jackson?
Billie Jean is not my Lover...
i think that should aswer that

56. Taco Bell or Burger King?
Yo quiero Taco Bell yo!

57. What's your favorite perfume?
Midnight fantasy. i just discovered another one but i can't remember the name at the moment...

58. Favorite baseball team?
pass. not a big fan

59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
nope, nor an 1-800 number (which would be more likely in the US)

60. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep?
I'm gonna say something like 3 days (i'm pretty sure i have, i just cant remember it)

61. Last time you went bowling?
Haha! like sophomore year! :P

62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
Hrm... maybe a bus? OOO i know. in a mall close to me, there is a little playground thing for kids to play and adults to sit and rest for a while. I accidentally slept in there by myself, with all my purchases under a proped up arm waiting for my mother and sister to come out of a store.

63. Who was your last phone call?
Haha, Jimmy Johns :P

64. Last time you were at work?
Wow! actually um, last tuesday

65. What's the closest orange object to you?
Well i do have an orange hat on my head, there's an orange notebook to m right, i have orange on my inner tank, i have orange on my wallet over to my right too...

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