Mad Girl's Love Song

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

This is my new (and probably only) favorite poem. It's by Sylvia Plath. My friend told me she was crazy and depressed.

Unfortunately, besides the obvious, i can't make heads or tails as to what she's trying to say. I am no poet and i hate deciphering poetry...it's a waste of time to me. But whatever she's saying, it sounds good to me.

I haven't been listning to much music lately, but I've decided i'm a fan of Metric

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The People.

It has been a crazy couple of weeks. This week is suppose to be pretty crazy too but hopefully i'm going to be a little more responsible this weekend and get some homework done (and of course, as i'm typing this, i have spent the whole day doing nothing but eating, sleeping, and listening to music).

This Tuesday was the kick-off for my "screamatthecapitol" event.
If you don't know, I've decided that every Tuesday at 4:30pm i'm going to go to my state's capitol and scream.

Why Tabby? that's so random O.o
Yea i know. But i've just been so frustrated with our government recently. I'm so tired of signing petitions, writing letters, and calling senators about issues I care for and my voice being drowned out by special interest groups with heavier wallets, people with prestige or TV shows, and Party bickering. I feel like no matter which party i vote for (Dem or Rep) it's still going to be thrown away because there is no guarantee that my senator is going to reflect the need of his/her state or the whim of his party.

I am so fed up with Congress. If I am not registered as a party member, then obviously i do not believe or trust ether party to do right by me. Never should the polls say that the majority of Americans prefer one thing and congress decide to vote to pass another thing. That is not the democracy our nation was founded on. And I demand change.

Therefore, like no amounts of petitioning or calling or letter writing seem to cut it, I've decided to use my physical voice to get my message across:
STOP rigging my democracy
LISTEN to my voice- the voice that gave you power in the first place
and STOP piggybacking on the ignorance of the American people. Don't make it so hard and unknown for the citizens of this country to get a hold of you and voice their concerns.

I am fed up! and It makes me want to SCREAM.
My dream is for that some time soon, any concerned American will march down to their respective state capitol, host a sit-in, and at 4:30 just scream. Let the People speak for the people- and let them tell the bureaucrats in Washington that we have had enough.

IN OTHER NEWS
I'm finally back to listening to...not tina turner?... O.o

anyways- the faves:
Favorite Band at the Moment? My Gold Mask.
favorite song? well the one Violet Eyes by My Gold Mask :P

NOT my favorite song of the day? One Time by Justin Beiber.
I dunno, Backstreet and N'sync definitely tops this kid. Please don't let your children/siblings/nieces or nephews listen to this crap.

Did some photos for Amnesty's 10,000 against torture campaign























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I'm a few days late

But HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

Though i had no special someone to spend it with, i still had a good time. My old roommate and I went shopping, dressed up, went out for dinner, and then to dessert. Last year i heard someone say this and since then it's revolutionized my view on Valentines day:
In the end, besides God himself- No one loves me more than me. So I celebrate V Day as a single who loves herself: i buy myself a gift (...or two) and i treat myself to my favorite sugary treats. Who knows what i want more than me right? It's like celebrating your own birthday but it's a lot less pathetic.

I admit that the mindset is a little narcissistic but i think i'm allowed to think about no.1 at least once a year : )

For all my single ladies, I created a flicker set for them- with a collection of photographs i took of a vase of flowers my parents sent me (yea, they're pretty amazing). I put up a bunch of quotes and pick-up lines about the V Day as well. idk, i'm pretty happy with it.

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Song at the moment? honestly- i don't have one for you. I haven't been listening to a lot of music recently. But I'll choose a song from Destroyer: Blue Flower/Blue Flame. actually i'll also put a link up for Your Blood as well (It's has my name in it!!! :D)

Artist at the moment? umm...It's still Tina Turner. i can't help it.

Random Question: Have I just not been paying attention all these years or are news stations reporting more deaths than usual?

again,
Happy (belated) valentines day!


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Did they say...

100% ELECTRIC???!?!?!!

GAAAH!
Pinch me, i must be dreaming.


V-day Tomorrow. I have a treat ^_^
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*facePALM*

I have so much to do for tomorrow, and so little time to do it. I've just given up and decided to blog.

It's been a fairly hard week. Monday i picked up 3 tickets in front of my car, Tuesday i lost my phone in the snow (it fell out of my pocket but someone thankfully found it and gave it back); and Wednesday i lost my favorite orange hat. I would just blame all these things on bad luck but it was just me being an unorganized mess and not handling my possessions responsibly.

For tomorrow i have to turn in a specialization application, read 2 chp. for an honors option, and do two weeks worth of research for my internship. How that will happen i do not know.

Today was alright though. despite being notoriously late for a recitation, i discovered i got a 3.5 on my first essay and was even able to bump that up to a 3.6 with some convincing. I also think i found a great apartment to live in next year after days of searching (now i know i will HATE house shopping when i'm older- go figure).

No matter what happens, I believe it's good to count your blessings- if you don't then you would probably end up suicidal (all that negative energy!!!)


I'm really craving some good techno music. I was hoping Hot Chip would do that for me- but i was disappointed. the new album is a little too chill and the only song i liked was One Life Stand. I'll probably grow into it though. I've realized that my standards for my favorite bands are always higher than what they usually end up giving me. That makes me scared for Arcade Fire- they're my no. 1- I'll probably be let down hard...

I've actually just finished uploading my artwork to put on a CD for my application. I wish i could just include some of my photography but they are not school assignments.
so much to do...

Recently i've been going through a Tina Turner phase. I've decided that her song "The Best" will be the song i will sing in my wedding- lol, i know. It's crazy.



You love it. Don't lie.
especially that insane sax player.






meet Ayoob.
He's a Koala.
My friend's roommate gave it to him after his trip to Australia.


...this was such an ADD post.

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A Brave New World

There are times when I feel like i'm at the center of a collision between my past, present, and future. it's so overwhelming, my mind can't even grasp it. This just happened to me a few days ago. I was reading my International Political Economy book and it's like i was very aware of what i was doing in the context of the interconnected reality i live in. I suddenly realized how small and insignificant I really was and yet I knew that there was a part that I needed to play in the grand scheme of things- but it's only for a split second. Does that happen to anyone else?

But anyway, that wasn't what i was going to blog about.
Francis Fukuyama, the author of Our Post-human Future is coming to my school next week and i've decided i wanted to hear him speak.
i wrote a very long explanation for this but i decided that i didn't want to make that long of blog post. Check out his writing- besides his explanation as to why human nature is something that should be preserved, i pretty much agree with him.

What is Technology but a reminder that man is not God. No matter how many thinner, faster, smarter, cheaper, cell phones come out, every single one of them are more than prone to fail on you. No matter how many steps we take forward in science, the margin of error will always find a way to sprout it's little ugly head. And think about it, we are a slave to technology.

We are a slave to our own creation. My life can take a tragic turn for the worst if my computer and my phone decided to crash. Every time my phone is lost or dead, i cannot function. I can't tell anyone about it, i don't have numbers, i don't have txting, nothing. Every time facebook dies on me, i don't have connections, i have too much time to kill, i can't do anything. God help me if the whole laptop went under- notes? papers? resumes? all in one liable machine.

Being a slave to technology is being a slave to man's failures. And the worst part is, i don't have to strength or the resources to break away from my bondage. I am forever brought down by the chains of progress. Thank God Jesus is coming back.
I know this a very weird and ironic thing to say on a blog post, but that doesn't mean I hate it any less.

**Rant over**

My favorite song at the moment is In Search Of by Miike Snow
Favorite artist right now? Peggy Sue... AMAZING















NEW SCARF! xD
I absolutely LOVE it. best Christmas present ever. well that and my new beautiful flannel shirt ^_^














I also got a new skirt. It's not the most flattering thing in the world but i just couldn't look pass this detail (and the sale price :P)

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Christmas Time is Here! ...or not...

I've been trying to upload some pictures from Christmas but blogger is just being one big FAIL right now... *boooooo*

...i really had nothing else to contribute but my pics...so i'll keep on trying :P

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**EDIT: I GOT THEM UP!!! i mean they're all small except for one, but i am in no position to complain...enjoy!**



































































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